Insecurity. Quite simply, that’s what I’m feeling about this entry. There are many artists on my list and songs that I look forward to singing. Steve and I will also upload an occasional new song that we are working on. So, I say again, insecurity.
Today, I am posting a song that we just finished a few days ago. It’s been “in process” for awhile… maybe a year or two. A new line here and there. A new verse, and another verse trashed. Sometimes songwriting comes easy and you slip into a new song like a nice worn pair of slippers. This song, not so much. It has taken me a while to find my voice inside these lyrics and this tune.
With other artists songs I can hide behind them. They sang it first and they created the vibe, I can add a little of myself to give a different spin but at the end of the day it’s not my song. It’s a copy. With this new song there is no hiding.
It has been 10 years since we have written a song, well, since we have finished a song. Steve wrote this one. It is a like a journal entry of how we have felt the past few years. Especially before our recent move back to Texas. I think the feeling of an “open road ahead” will always speak to something rooted deep in both of us. We have pictures all over our house of roads untravelled. I noticed this recently.
We are are two people who have always loved the idea of adventure. We have had dreams for our entire marriage (almost 17 years) of boarding planes or packing our car and heading out and seeing what adventure awaits us.
Life changed our plans, not in a bad way but in a way that was unexpected. Our adventure these past 12 years has taken the shape of three loud, creative and time consuming children who we adore. There is no roadmap that came with them, so everyday is a new journey but its a journey confined to a few square miles of our little life.
When I sing this song I feel that sense of adventure seeping back into this dormant dreamer but it also means putting myself “out there.” This is my adventure today. To put aside my insecurity and try. So, here we are. Let the adventure begin… Now I need to go get supper going : )
It is 17-degrees in northern Illinois with snow all over the ground, and that song made me feel like I was in Texas for four heart-warming minutes. So please feel free to write some more songs so I can enjoy an album’s worth of that kind of feeling.
Well, you just made my day…. So nervous about putting our new songs out there. Thanks Nathan for the encouragement. You have no idea how much it means….well, maybe you do:)
I know the feeling. When you don’t write that many songs, you hold on to them differently than if you are writing every day. And when a song has been brewing in you for so long, it becomes a personal friend of yours in a way, and when you introduce it to people for the first time, you get a little anxious hoping it leaves a good impression.
“dormant dreamer” a beautifully descriptive phrase. Well crafted!